Saturday, December 23, 2006
Trust in the Lord
Right after my miscarriage, I came to a crossroad in my walk with the Lord. I had believed and prayed that this baby would be healthy and come to full term. Needless to say I was devastated after the miscarriage and questioned my faith. However I choose to trust God despite my loss and lack of understanding.
It is easy for me to praise God when things are going smoothly. It is easy to believe every word of the bible when one is not faced with trials, but God's word does not become a lie when things go wrong. The bible says that rain falls on the just and the unjust alike. It would be completely naive of me to expect that no bad thing will happen to me. Bad and unpleasant things will happen to us all. It is a part of life, inevitable. So it seems to go without saying that God is still God when life seems unbearable. He is unchanging. I truly believe it is when one goes through a rough time the honesty of ones faith and beliefs are tested. I can't say that I understand it all, but I trust in God. God and the bible don’t make complete sense to me, but He sees my end from my beginning, and also that of my baby and he knows best. To a certain extent, I feel the integrity of my faith has been tested.
I was cleaning out an old diaper bag during the week and I came across a memory verse card that was given to my son when he was a baby. I read it again tonight and tears came to my eyes as the assurance of God flooded my heart; "Blessed are those who trust in the Lord.... They are like trees planted along a river bank, with roots that reach deep into the water. Such trees are not bothered by the heat, or worried by long months of drought. Their leaves are green, and they go right on producing delicious fruit. Jeremiah 17:7-8.
I would love to say that I am not bothered by the heat or droughts in my life, they bother me quite a bit sometimes, but I will trust in the Lord at all times, even when it hurts. And I am thankful I do not have the fruits of bitterness or envy. That despite my bad days, I can genuinely smile, laugh, give babies big hugs and kisses, and most important of all trust and sing praises to My Lord.
It is easy for me to praise God when things are going smoothly. It is easy to believe every word of the bible when one is not faced with trials, but God's word does not become a lie when things go wrong. The bible says that rain falls on the just and the unjust alike. It would be completely naive of me to expect that no bad thing will happen to me. Bad and unpleasant things will happen to us all. It is a part of life, inevitable. So it seems to go without saying that God is still God when life seems unbearable. He is unchanging. I truly believe it is when one goes through a rough time the honesty of ones faith and beliefs are tested. I can't say that I understand it all, but I trust in God. God and the bible don’t make complete sense to me, but He sees my end from my beginning, and also that of my baby and he knows best. To a certain extent, I feel the integrity of my faith has been tested.
I was cleaning out an old diaper bag during the week and I came across a memory verse card that was given to my son when he was a baby. I read it again tonight and tears came to my eyes as the assurance of God flooded my heart; "Blessed are those who trust in the Lord.... They are like trees planted along a river bank, with roots that reach deep into the water. Such trees are not bothered by the heat, or worried by long months of drought. Their leaves are green, and they go right on producing delicious fruit. Jeremiah 17:7-8.
I would love to say that I am not bothered by the heat or droughts in my life, they bother me quite a bit sometimes, but I will trust in the Lord at all times, even when it hurts. And I am thankful I do not have the fruits of bitterness or envy. That despite my bad days, I can genuinely smile, laugh, give babies big hugs and kisses, and most important of all trust and sing praises to My Lord.
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