About a year ago, I found out I was pregnant again for the 5th time. Filled with fear and disappointment I waited for the 8 week mark. It came and I was still pregnant, oh well maybe 12 weeks this time.
I had my beautiful angelic daugter in May, at 38 weeks and simply stated she is a joy.
God knows why I had to go through all I went through but all I know is that He is faithful and I treasure each moment with her. It is a gift.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
Out of Nowhere
I have been out of pocket for a while because I have had nothing to blog about. But life holds lots of surprises. Out of nowhere I have missed my period and I am pregnant. I took no fertility pills and was evenafraid my premature menopause had advanced, but to my shock the HPT was positive.
So here I am blogging again. I have my first prenatal visit tomorrow. I am cautiously optimistic. But optimistic nonetheless. My doctors told me it will never happen, but here I sit..........................
So here I am blogging again. I have my first prenatal visit tomorrow. I am cautiously optimistic. But optimistic nonetheless. My doctors told me it will never happen, but here I sit..........................
Thursday, May 03, 2007
Sunday, April 15, 2007
Weight Loss
Like Millions of people across our planet I made the resolution to loose some weight. My son is four, I think I should stop using him as an excuse. Well, I have been pregnant 2 other times, but I can't use that either. LOL. Here are my stats.
Height: 5' 8
Starting Weight: 172 pounds,
Starting BMI: 26.1 - Overweight.
Weight loss plan: Exercise and reduced portions - Can't Diet
Start Date: January 28th, 2007
Target Date: Whenever it happens - OK June.
Weight Today: 160 pounds (Progress has been made)
Current BMI: 24.3 no longer overweight
Target Weight: 145 pounds
Target BMI: 22. Right smack in the middle of normal
For the month of April, I intend to workout 4 days a week for an hour and 15 minutes a day on the treadmill, and do a workout video 20mins a day twice a week. I hope to loose another 2 - 5 pounds this month. So by June I should be close to my target weight. Please keep me in your prayers. I weighted 158.5 last week, gained a pound and a half.
Height: 5' 8
Starting Weight: 172 pounds,
Starting BMI: 26.1 - Overweight.
Weight loss plan: Exercise and reduced portions - Can't Diet
Start Date: January 28th, 2007
Target Date: Whenever it happens - OK June.
Weight Today: 160 pounds (Progress has been made)
Current BMI: 24.3 no longer overweight
Target Weight: 145 pounds
Target BMI: 22. Right smack in the middle of normal
For the month of April, I intend to workout 4 days a week for an hour and 15 minutes a day on the treadmill, and do a workout video 20mins a day twice a week. I hope to loose another 2 - 5 pounds this month. So by June I should be close to my target weight. Please keep me in your prayers. I weighted 158.5 last week, gained a pound and a half.
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Daily Trusting
The longer I live and the more I know, the less I understand. Some days I find myself not getting it, not understanding why some things happen. I got a call from a friend today who is expecting her baby tomorrow; her brother-in-law passed away on Sunday as his family waited for him to come home for Easter dinner.
So at a time when they should be expectant and excited they are mourning. He would have turned 40 in May. This same family lost their father last September. A horrible loss in the course of a year.
As I have mentioned earlier I believe doubt and fear arise from not trusting God. I learning to trust God's sovereignty. I am learning to trust Him with the little things and the big things. Trust Him that not being able to have another child is for His glory, trusting Him that my daily doldrums will give Him glory. Trusting Him that one day all this will be over and more importantly I will be with Him in paradise where there will be no more tears, no more pain. No more tears - can't wait
So at a time when they should be expectant and excited they are mourning. He would have turned 40 in May. This same family lost their father last September. A horrible loss in the course of a year.
As I have mentioned earlier I believe doubt and fear arise from not trusting God. I learning to trust God's sovereignty. I am learning to trust Him with the little things and the big things. Trust Him that not being able to have another child is for His glory, trusting Him that my daily doldrums will give Him glory. Trusting Him that one day all this will be over and more importantly I will be with Him in paradise where there will be no more tears, no more pain. No more tears - can't wait
Revelation 21:4
He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.
Friday, March 30, 2007
Voice of Truth by Casting Crowns
This song has been a blessing to me especially when my reality is far from my dreams. I put my trust in you Lord, give me your dreams for my life.
Oh what I would do to have the kind of faith it takes
To climb out of this boat I'm in onto the crashing waves
To step out of my comfort zone into the realm of the unknown where Jesus is
And He's holding out His hand
But the waves are calling out my name and they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me time and time again.
"Boy, you'll never win!""You'll never win!"
Chorus: But the voice of truth tells me a different story
The voice of truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
The voice of truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to meI will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth
Oh what I would do to have the kind of strength it takes to stand before a giant
With just a sling and a stone surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors
Shaking in their armor wishing they'd have had the strength to stand
But the giant's calling out my name and he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling meTime and time again. "Boy you'll never win!""You'll never win!"
But the stone was just the right size
To put the giant on the groundAnd the waves they don't seem so high
From on top of them lookin' downI will soar with the wings of eagles
When I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus singing over me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth
Oh what I would do to have the kind of faith it takes
To climb out of this boat I'm in onto the crashing waves
To step out of my comfort zone into the realm of the unknown where Jesus is
And He's holding out His hand
But the waves are calling out my name and they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me time and time again.
"Boy, you'll never win!""You'll never win!"
Chorus: But the voice of truth tells me a different story
The voice of truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
The voice of truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to meI will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth
Oh what I would do to have the kind of strength it takes to stand before a giant
With just a sling and a stone surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors
Shaking in their armor wishing they'd have had the strength to stand
But the giant's calling out my name and he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling meTime and time again. "Boy you'll never win!""You'll never win!"
But the stone was just the right size
To put the giant on the groundAnd the waves they don't seem so high
From on top of them lookin' downI will soar with the wings of eagles
When I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus singing over me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth
Thursday, February 15, 2007
Wanting More
Do I want more kids? I often wonder these days if I want more kids. don't get me wrong I would love to have more babies, very few things will give me more joy than carry a pregnancy to term and have a healthy baby at the end of it all. But more and more theses days I am learning contentment. And what is interesting is that the more I learn contentment the more peace I have and the easier it is to accept things.
God's plans are not mine. He is God all by himself and if I am going to trust Him I have to trust Him with all of my life; the good and the seemingly bad, the explainable and the unexplained. Then and only then can we have peace.
God's plans are not mine. He is God all by himself and if I am going to trust Him I have to trust Him with all of my life; the good and the seemingly bad, the explainable and the unexplained. Then and only then can we have peace.
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